Jump to the Future

Star Date June 16, 2010

Sounds like a Star Trek episode. Almost feels like one.

Two months of no blogging. And now I am in a completely new house. New country. New time zone. Without a husband or children. And its really weird.

After much pushing and prodding to bring the blog back to life, it is back online.

I have arrived in the USA safe and sound. Touched down on Monday in Chicago. Hit the road Tuesday morning at 8.07am. Arrived in South Dakota by 9pm at the Atteberry Farm. Hit the couch for a quick sleep by 11.30 and was up for a day of sorting by 8.30 on Wednesday with everyone.

Its been weird. Not something I can put into words quite yet. The house doesn't look the same. Definitely doesn't smell the same. Doesn't feel the same. There is a void here that won't be filled again. I know this is the last time I will be here and it really bring conflicting feelings out. The memories are strong. They make me smile, they bring tears to my eyes. I can't imagine what they are doing to mom and all her siblings right now.

Went up to Grammas grave to see her for the first time. That is when it really hit me that it was real. It was so strong it physically knocked me over. I couldn't stand up after sitting down with her. I have never felt that way before. Something just kept drawing me back down.

I am glad I am here though. Being with everyone is helping. And I know that is part of what I need to help me to move on...